wtf

now i begin to understand that no..

not many people can think rationally, of coz including me la, despite how much we want to claim that we can.. WE CANT.

truly lost my mind these few days..

but some of my innerself let me know that im wrong.. guilt or sometin.. mayb just that im not use to it..

sometin happened these few days and.. yea.. shit happen even in holiday

can only say that.. the more u know someone.. the more u feel the shit of that person..

its always better to keep a distance..

even wif someone u reli care or love..

sometime they just fuck u up n they dont even realize it..

this is life.. and there is no longer such things as "mistake".. this is who we all are..

we make mistake like daily routine alr.. this is US.. dammit.. we learn from our mistake to make even more mistake.. to hell wif our life...

because we keeps on making mistake towards people around us, and they return it to us... we learn to forgive n forget n love....

painful and... fruitful i guess..

in the end... what u earn is actually the result of ur everytin that happen in ur life that shape you, strengthen you.. whether you want or not.

TO HELL WITH LIFE... cheers

This is the Alien Font

helo everyone

actually...

im just...

testing this.. LOL

new list ;)

hmmph..

i have a plan again hiak hiak hiak, just to remind myself ;)

aftr make my own card =)

1k ) figurine + jersey

aftr retrieve my loan

1k ) i5 + mobo

1k ) tron set

1k) drivin n shootin set

aftr have a room

2k) 40"

1k) 5.1

waaa.. my dream so far away.. hahahaha

how pathetic can he be?

come on la bro...

i heard there is this one guy in my class that claim himself to be the best leader among others.

the hell, i give credits for his effort and braveness la

but ~.~mlm... he is definitely not the best



see for urself

1. when he is a leader he tell seniors bout what we did (i assume he just guess most of it, meaning he just tell what he *think* we will do or what we have done)

2. when he is a leader, he listen to people who ask him to do fuck things on his own classmate, which he really DID.

3. everytime.. go for outing... anyplace.. anytime... he is always the one start to bad mouth other people... main point? NOBODY ASK HIM TO DO SO! okay?

4. epic failure in keeping secrets..
some example
> one second ago, 2 people ask him not to tell SOMEONE the news about the rumors that we heard on the exam result... the next second, that particular SOMEONE know...

he only able to keep his damn mouth shut for 1 second

> sometime ago, ever ask me who is the girl i have interest in, happen twice (which i gave him wrong info twice oso, u know, a guy instinct can be deadly accurate too)
1st case.. took him one day to shut his damn mouth only, coz everyone has gone back home
2nd case.. took him....... like... 5 mins? directly tell a girl everytin i told him.

and all i did was tell INACURATE INFO and put up a.. NO-PLEASE-DONT-TELL-ANYONE face, and i can witness such a fasinating show

5 the fuckest thing is... he is such a "STONE FIRE"... batuuuuuu api.. batuuuuuu api... which i almost get one of it from him, luckily i predicted it earlier which i dont feel like tellin it at here.. mlm=.=mlm... and i witness him batu api alot of people...

funny thing is.. he dont even realise it!!! COOL!! such an epic failure...

actually he have his good side too. he maybe a good person which i have doubt

BUT

is he an excellent leader as he claim??

when u turn urself on our own classmate.. mlm~.~mlm... u dont have the right to talk about any leadership quality u possess to me

an interestin story

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

Alien

well...

just now i went to urban dictionary searchin for the word "alienware"

and i get a poor response =(

overprice product, totally crappy customer service, only for rich spoilt kids =(

kinda sad... however after doin a lil bit of research ...

its kinda hapi to know tiz

i7 2670qm currently no.5 in i7 series...

LOL =)

blog it off

recently... lot of stuff happened...

LOL.. i feel funny about the sentence above... there are awez a lot of stuff going on...

anyway, something big to me.. reli did happened...

in just a few days, i realised.... i really did change?!

i mean i really did....

i changed... yay...

however... sad things is...

i having issues in communicating skills... haix... fuck me...